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Fat, old, lazy.

April 24, 2014

ImageHave you ever read the nutritional facts on a package of pasta? If so, I’m sure you’re feeling something like me, and Homer here. If not, I recommend doing yourself a solid and forgoing that particular information as you’re liable to find that your ideal serving of pasta is probably 2-4x the recommended serving and way more calories than you’re comfortable admitting you’ve eaten. If you’re in your late 20’s or over, this sort of meal will leave you feeling fat, lazy and old.


Remember when I started this blog in 2009 (5 years ago!!!) and I was unstoppable? I not only did yoga constantly, but somehow found the time and energy to then write about it (and do other stuff.) Since then, I’ve aged…I do only a fraction of that yoga, and for that matter, only do a fraction of the things I used to do. I notice some differences, and while they may be noticeable to me and perhaps a very discerning on-looker, I doubt they’re quite as overblown as they are in my own estimation. Still, I’m carrying extra weight, I hurt, and for the first time ever, I have fledgling love handles. It’s not ok. And yes, all this said, I did just eat a large bowl of pasta.

30 is on the horizon for me and since I uprooted myself 2 yrs ago with no particular plan in place, I figured there is no time like the present to devise one. Recently, I took a brief stay at the Sivananda Yoga Farm in Grass Valley (a retreat I’ve been visiting with building frequency) and did a bit of soul searching while I took some sun in between doing asana, meditating and eating (the three main activities on the ashram as far as I’m concerned.) A ticky-tacky written thought web produced a few conclusions as to what values/things should be included in my forward momentum. Those things are: Stories, Food, Nature, Fitness, and Design. I’m even hoping that I may be able to package them all into one. Most importantly, at least to this blog, were Fitness and Stories. This blog tells the stories of my journey towards mental, physical, and emotional fitness. Granted, I’ve got a long way to go, but I’ve also come a great distance already.

Since moving to San Francisco, I hate to say it, but I’ve largely lost my connection with the greater yoga community. I still keep a home practice and keep up with my personal teacher, and while that should be sufficient, it seems to not quite satiate me the way I had hoped to be when I began this journey. I feel like the missing component is “sharing”, coupled with “current events.” I’m out of touch with what is going on in the yoga community; I don’t know who’s who and who’s purveying what out here on the west coast (or anywhere for that matter), which is my new(ish) home. I’m a 500 hr+ certified teacher who has taught minimally but attends classes sparingly and snobbishly. Something is off.

Before I cross the threshold of my 30’s I’m hoping to shed a few pounds and shed a little light on my (yet) budding yoga career. I’ve started with trying to get back into group classes. I know I’ve said it before but the group dynamic is soothing and motivating in a way that I cannot find in my home practice. Also, most of these classes are geared toward physical fitness…so I’m bound to do a little calorie burning. I had a week where I got into classes 3 or 4 times and almost instantly I felt better and noticed that some of my chronic back pain was easing (although, my chronic hip pain seemed to be aggravated, d’oh!) I just know that even though no one expects a yoga teacher to be perfect, a well fit teacher is a much more convincing package…and I aim to offer it. I’m also hoping that along with doing of yoga (asana) that I can start to teach it. Recently, I wrote my first yoga sequence/class in years.  SAD. And, WHEN (not if) I do get to teach that and other classes, guess who’s coming with me? That’s right…DHARMA CHAMELEON, and all of you (or probably just my mom…my most devoted reader.)

[photo: credited, but used without permission from someone else’s blog and The Simpsons]

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